If you have been traumatised from the time you were a child to believe you were a ‘spic', that you were a garlic-mouth, that you are not worthy, it takes a long time to get rid of that. That's why therapy so often takes so long, because you're trying to get rid of that trash before you can deal with the you that wants to get better. I went into therapy wanting to get better, knowing that in some way I had a sickness. And the sickness was Rita hates Rita.