And if God does not help me to go on, then I shall have to help God. - The surface of the earth is gradually turning into one great prison camp, and soon there will be nobody left outside. ... I don't fool myself about the real state of affairs, and I've even dropped the pretense that I'm out to help others. I shall merely try to help God as best I can, and if I succeed in doing that, then I shall be of use to others as well. But I mustn't have heroic illusions about that either.