When I first started doing self-portraits – and I didn't start until I was in my 40s, quite late – I did these portraits where my hand was kind of stretched out toward the canvas, as if about to paint...I suppose I was imitating those famous poses of Goya or Rembrandt. But something felt so false about that. Somehow women don't have a secure place in the history of art and to portray myself in this way standing squarely, about to paint, it wasn't right.