Since the rape, it has felt like I've faced an unimaginable battering – first in going to the police, being in front of officers who don't understand you. Then when you say it publicly, there are people who don't believe you, who mock you. Or there are people who believe it but say it's your own fault. Before this, I had heard a lot of women talking about the fact they weren't believed. And when History of Violence was published, I realised the full extent of what those women had gone through.