More often than not, even the people and even the moments and even the circumstances that you feel you can go to for stability, for that piece of happiness, can all of a sudden shift, and can all of a sudden become tainted. And everything that you believe, or even that small moment of connection that you can feel can sometimes be destroyed. And I'm not a negative person - shockingly. I'm somewhat of a realist. And I'm a very passionate person, so I don't like to expect that shift, I don't like to expect for things that I love to become malignant or to become a great disappointment. But it happens. And it's devastating. Every time.