Marya Hornbacher quotes

Anorexia and bulimia seem to be getting much more common in boys, men, and women of all ages and socioeconomic backgrounds; they are also becoming more common in racial groups previously thought to be impervious to the problem. (Marya Hornbacher)
You can only whine for so long. Then you need to get your life back. View quote
Marya Hornbacher
I have a type of bipolar that swings up and down all day long. There are significant mood swings within a day, within a week, within a month. I go through at least four major episodes a year. That's really the definition of bipolar rapid cycle. But I have ultra-rapid, so I have tiny little episodes all day long. View quote
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It's really interesting to me how all of us can experience the exact same event, and yet come away with wildly disparate interpretations of what happened. We each have totally different ideas of what was said, what was intended, and what really took place. View quote
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There's childhood and early onset bipolar, but it transitions in your early adulthood into something a little bit different, and extremely severe. It was at that time that my impulse control just went out the window. Impulse control when you're manic just disappears. View quote
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Madness strips you of memory and leaves you scrabbling around on the floor of your brain for the snatches and snippets of what happened, what was said, and when. View quote
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And yet you are all that you have, so you must be enough. There is no other way. View quote
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Because I'm not, in fact, depressed, Prozac makes me manic and numb - one of the reasons I slice my arm in the first place is that I'm coked to the gills on something utterly wrong for what I have. View quote
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The term "starvation diet” refers to 900 calories a day. I was on one-third of a starvation diet. What do you call that? One word that comes to my mind: "suicide. View quote
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I get absolutely shitfaced. I am shitfaced and hyper and ten years old. I am having the time of my life. View quote
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I know how this feels: the tightening of the chest, the panic, the what-have-I-done-wait-I-was-kidding. Eating disorders linger so long undetected, eroding the body in silence, and then they strike. The secret is out. You're dying. (Marya Hornbacher)
When you believe that you are not worthwhile in and of yourself, in the back of your mind you also begin to believe that life is not worthwhile in and of itself. It is only worthwhile insofar as it relates to your crusade. It is a kamikaze mission. View quote
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For me, the first sign of oncoming madness is that I'm unable to write. View quote
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Having a normal person around me made it poingnantly clear to me that I was out of control. View quote
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My brain sometimes departs from the agreed-upon reality, and my private reality is a very lonely place. But in the end, I'm not sure I wish I'd never gone there. View quote
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I have a remarkable ability to delete all better judgement from my brain when I get my head set on something. I have no sense of moderation, no sense of caution. I have no sense pretty much. View quote
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Falling in love happens so suddenly that it seems, all at once, that you have always been in love. View quote
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Me and my needs were driving my mother away. Me and my needs retreated to my closet, disappeared into fairy tales. I started making up a world where my needs wouldn´t exist at all. View quote
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There is, in the end, the letting go. View quote
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You wake up one morning and there it is, sitting in an old plaid bathrobe in your kitchen, unpleasant and unshaved. You look at it, heart sinking. Madness is a rotten guest. View quote
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Hatred is so much closer to love than indifference. (Marya Hornbacher)
In truth, you like the pain. You like it because you believe you deserve it. View quote
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We turn skeletons into goddesses and look to them as if they might teach us how not to need. View quote
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There is, in fact, an incredible freedom in having nothing left to lose. View quote
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I began to measure things in absence instead of presence. View quote
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